As my T says, i have a hard time integrating Good Mom and Bad Mom. she either is all-bad or all-good. and when she is all bad, thats what happens: what i wrote above here. i become a child and i cant be reasonable and see it all together as the adult that i am and as what an adult should see….

Sorryshaped, i did talk a bit with my mom and she understood the little bit i told her and it went better. thanks.