Last night and today I'm really trying the positive thing in regards to this recent problem with friend. I'm trying to remember the thread I made before saying he was a good people and that he's different than others. Yes, others may have hurt me and have given up, but that doesn't mean he's going to. At least for the moment, I'm hopeful that he will return to me soon and that we will work past the problem.

Of course, then the bad thoughts say things like "well, he's already out the door, he's just gotta close it behind him, would be so easy". It also reminds me how he did outright leave before for a week but then came back - he would have been back sooner, but I was stubborn, and his reason for leaving wasn't because of me supposedly (though that's not much comfort considering it means I could lose him again through no fault of my own).