I am sorry the situation has come to be this way

I just wanted to say you are a very strong person. I am not saying that as a generalized supportive statement, I am saying that because I genuinely believe I would not be able to handle what you are going through. So from my perspective, you are staying very strong...

You are not a failure. Don't cloud your judgement or try to justify negativity with "buts". I noticed you said "I shouldn't take it personally, BUT... and I don't want to feel like a failure, BUT...."

Your accomplishments are so much more important than any reason you can add after that "but" to justify why you think you should feel like a failure. Fear of failure is what keeps people hinged in work environments that make them miserable. They put success before happiness and forget The ultimate success is finding happiness..

As for saying you shouldnt take it personally, you shouldn't. No buts about it (lol). Don't second guess yourself.

In your text I feel that you speak from a part of you that is rooted in logic, experience, and understanding... and another part of you that is rooted in worry, doubts, and fear. You musn't draw your energy from the latter.