Panicky. Rent is due today and I'm $275 short. Next paycheck isn't until Friday. I have to hope my parents can spare that much money until I can pay them back on Friday. If not, I have to hope my landlord will give me a break. It will be the first time since living here almost 3 years now that I will have been late, so hopefully that buys me some leeway.

This isn't helping the slight panic I already had from wondering if friend would talk to me today. He hasn't yet. So more panic and hopeless feelings thinking he won't say anything to me ever again.