I had a bad day today. Couldn't exercise, which shot the anxiety sky high.

Told the pdoc my weight was the same as last week, which was a fib, I think it is down a pound or 2. I am eating but most days overexercising.

Pdoc gave me a 2 week window to turn this around before he'd start recommending me for IP.

I know everything I need to do. I've recovered, relapsed, recovered, relapsed many times, but I have so much freaking stress!

The exercise is the only thing I can control. The food too, but to a lesser extent, considering I have a family, have to eat dinner with them nightly, lunch during the weekend. I just way overdo it on the exercise, so far beyond the calorie count I'd need to balance what I've burned off, it is unlikely to happen with fairly normal eating even it it is sometimes weird like having Cheezits for lunch or something.

I need to get into a healthier head space...sigh.