What I have learned at the tables of AA is that normal drinkers rarely if ever question if they have a drinking problem.

I have been sober in AA for 3 years. I was not physically dependent on it, but was psychologically for sure. I was using it to treat my bipolar depression. Mixing the antidepressant with booze was bad news. Sometimes the same enzymes needed to break down the med are the same needed to break down the booze. This results in you getting even drunker on the same amount.

I did not find relief from my depression until I got sober. You still may have time to clean up your act. I don't know. But depression and alcohol and meds do not mix well.