It's interesting how a few hours can make a huge difference.
Yesterday I made a vow: I resolved to read less negative information. Specifically all the chaos happening on Capitol Hill.
This morning was amazing: I woke up refreshed, and got through my morning routine quickly. Usually I amble about lethargically, like Eeyore or Snuffleapagus from Sesame Street. Not today - I breezed through the morning paper and sat down ready to move forward.
Unfortunately, my hold habits quickly derailed my day. The activity was there: I read many articles, and posted many updates on Quora. However, none of this led to anything tangible for work.
My employment history is spotty at best - I've been fired from 6 jobs in the past 8 yrs. Am now attempting something with lower stress - and lower (nonexistent) pay. It's supposed to be entrepreneurial, and my colleague is phenomenal. However, my heart is not in it, and I feel totally unmotivated to do anything.
Baby steps, I guess. At least I'm not actively polluting my thoughts with negativity. So - that's a positive.
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Diagnosis: Bipolar I w/ Depression
Medications:
Lamictal
Lyrica
ECT - once / month
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