The medication does make it hard for intimacy. It seems as though my partner has to catch me at the right time. However, when I am manic I seem to be ravenous (and unfortunately not with my partner). I seem to have made a security blanket. I have security with my partner and a stable life....but I crave something more. I have figured out recently that I need to make my relationship into what I am craving. Unfortunately my terrible spending habits (again the results of manic episodes) I have hidden a lot of debt and we are so strapped financially that it makes it difficult to be adventurous and free spirited - what seems to be what I am lacking in my relationship. I don't know if my relationship will last, I seem to be the crux of all our problems, yet they still put up with it....WHY? I don't know. But I know i will never find a person like this ever again so it would probably be in my best interest to try. And that includes managing my disorder well.