((((Rapunzel))))
I feel the pain in my heart of the hurt and sadness, and loss of peace in your life right now. There is an old saying that things come in threes, but often for some unknown reason we might get fives or sixes. I will keep you in my prayers each day and ask that God be at your side protecting you and giving you all the love and strength you need in the coming days.
I too think it is better in this case to pay the ticket and forget about it, lose the stress of worrying about it. Almost sounds to me, as if you may have just taken on more than you can handle. If you are constantly tired and stressed, things have a way of going bad drather quickly. I was saddened to hear about your nanny goat and babies. Just this alone must have broken your heart. I think your very well-liked here and most if not all here are still holding your hand, supporting your cause, so that you will succeed and not fail. Having been there in life where everything is going wrong and no matter what I tried it just got worse, it was then and only then that I realized I had forgotten to go to the Lord in prayer. This time of trying to handle it all by yourself, may be the time to hand your worry and pain over to God. Bless you. You are special, 1 Girl