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Originally Posted by susannahsays
. . . A little part of me wants to see what happens if I try being honest for a change, instead of avoiding, demurring, omitting, and otherwise doing my best to obscure my history and my feelings. But then most of me thinks that it's absolutely nuts to do any such thing and I must be bonkers to think that's a good idea. I shouldn't give the therapist even more ammo she can use against me.
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I tried honesty too much -- attempted honesty to a fault, a "good girl". And I did get hurt (lots) in the process.
But I didn't have access to the reservations about the downside and risks of honesty that you do.
I'm currently working (on my own, no therapist help, thank you) on trying to achieve some balance between curiosity and caution, etc.
So far, this therapist doesn't sound so bad to me. Maybe there can be some benefit to you to continuing to talk with her? To see what happens, if nothing else? What are the real, current risks to you, especially with regard to the things that have been revealed?