Rive I've been trying to think of ways to show care outside of touch, but I don't know what they are. It's more that care doesn't seem to sink in for me unless touch is attached (this is with everyone in my life, not just T).

nikon Hmmm...it's not so much 'mattering' or 'being important' as 'wanting to know I exist to him and that he seems me as a human being worthy of compassion for the hour we are together'.

I've had therapists with poor boundaries as well – and as much as I want to punch my therapist right now, I'd rather have a therapist a little too rigid than one who has no professionalism whatsoever.

Electric You gave me such good advice when I last had a struggle with my therapist, and your words touch on so many things I'm thinking again. It would be great if you could share what happened with your therapist, if you're comfortable. I feel very alone in all this. Happy if you want to PM too.