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Originally Posted by *Laurie*
Have you called the social worker who is supposed to help you? (Unfortunately, the squeaky wheel gets the grease.)
Regardless of what you've heard about the hospital close to you, I strongly suggest that you check it out. If it doesn't feel right to you, leave.
I'll be honest. I am really concerned about you. You are making connections from one dysfunctional thought to another and spinning, spinning into a downward spiral. Not only is your mental health in danger, so is your physical health. My suggestion is that you stop overthinking everything and making illogical choices that are coming from a place of confused thinking, and reach out for help however and wherever you can...like, yesterday.
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I know, I'm starting to worry about me too. I don't think the closest hospital would have something like IOP. It's not that large. And it has apparently earned its reputation. Everyone around here says absolutely not to use it, and due to that, the staff & doctors they hire tend to be lower quality, etc.
I did call the social worker lady back yesterday. She said she was going to email me a release form from some other case workder yesterday and never did. I didn't hear a thing today.
I think I spent too long trying to get some sort of help because I am hugely depressed this evening too.
If I didn't have my daughter, I would look into inpatient, but my husband has no help caring for her without me here, and I have never seen him so stressed out, defeated, near the breaking point himself. I know IP is an option; it's just not the way I want to do things.
As far as physical health, pdoc seems to have taken an interest in that now, and I did just have a workup done last week. I had a couple things off, not bad, a few low electrolytes (like maybe 1-2 numbers outside the range of the norm) that were probably due to dehydration. Most things were fine, other than the low iron. I always have low iron.
I'm safe at least. Not going to do anything that would deprive my daughter of a mom. I figure even if I'm not the mom she deserves to have, it's better she has me than no mom at all.
I am going to try to get my mind off things and read or failing that, soak in an Epsom salt bath.
I've definitely had better days, and I was running a low grade fever earlier in the day, so I could be getting sick. Hopefully, it was just a small bug. For all that I've put my body through, I still tend to have good physical health.