I wish it was like having super powers,lol.It's nothing like that at all though.It's alot like I said in anothe post about the girl on that Netflix show,having to learn everything as I go along.I'm not naturally sociable just because someone else inside used to be.I'm not a seductress just because one was,etc.,most of their skills and knowledge were coping skills developed years ago when they were created and having them now myself isn't that helpful really.The ability to draw,yes,I like that,but not knowing how to manage life,not knowing how to take care of myself,having to learn everything is so frustrating.

I don't think I'm explaining any of this very well.DID was a way to cope and no longer being DID is the opposite of that.I never learned coping skills.I never learned social skills or basic things.

I wish integration had turned me into a super woman with all the knowledge and skills to be able to do anything and everything,like just automatically know how to.It's not like that at all.It's lmore like suddenly having everything taken away.