I've been reflecting on choices I made in life. It's depressing me because i am so off course. It's not recoverable. I can't go back in time and make good decisions. I just am feeling like my life is in ruins. I never married the one, in fact think I blew him off inadvertently because of my own insecurities. I've prayed for God to help me, he heard my prayers but I really think I'm beyond help. Just so sad.