You are not stupid at all. Stress is so hard on us. I, too, have been feeling it and then I drank a half of big bottle of diet coke and got all wound up on top of it all. All of a sudden I started laughing this morning--it was strange but after I felt better and it was a release of some of the stress. I am tired but don't want to go to sleep yet. Yesterday I cried and because a friend of mine passed. She had cancer--she was only 61 years old. It was breast cancer and she had chemo and lived for 6 years in remission and in May she told me it spread to her brain. That was the last we communicated. I realized the things she taught me that I needed to see again-her gift. I have been suddenly seeing the gifts people have given me who have passed--my dad, too. I had an insight into him today that I've never had before. He showed me so much patience yet he'd been through hell, too, before I was even born.