I am glad that you are safe.
and that you have a family to love. I know they love you and would be terribly hurt if you hurt yourself.
my brother took his life and it ruined my family for a long time...my parents are still not over it....and that was 30 years ago.
know that In patient is still an option. could your daughter go to your parents or in laws or other family members?
once my cousin came to live with us for a semester while her bipolar mom got stable.
I am sorry you are having this much stress.
I wish there was some way to help you.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi