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First, let's start with My Paper Heart. Also, this reminds me, does anyone know how to properly tag people in forums? But I digress.

The ancient Egyptians. Their priests held the purse strings. Read Colleen McCullough's excellent series, The Masters of Rome. Pure history, filled in with daily drama to make it come alive. The priests controlled the kingdom through the Pharaohs. They built nothing without the blessing of the priests. The pharaohs knew they needed the priests to back up their claims that they were gods among men, and the priests controlled mathematics to predict all sorts of crazy crap, which is how they ruled the commoners with cheap subterfuge. They also controlled the lineage of the Egyptian dynasties, as well, all while avoiding the same in-breeding habits themselves. You see what I'm getting at...? They had a very primitive knowledge of selective genetics, too, enough to know that in-breeding bred retardation, intellectual impairment...stuff that made people easier to control. Why rule Egypt as pharaohs when you can rule the treasury instead and thereby control Egypt from the shadows? This is why when Akhenaten established Amun Re as the monotheistic deity, he ran afoul of the priests and *ffffffffff!* That was the end of Akhenaten and his dynasty.

Not only human behavior, but it's true in every sense. There exist patterns in Nature for a reason. The only way to grow out of bad probability branches is to selectively prune out bad choices. There's your karma in action, as explained by physics. lol Since every zero space-time interval is a completely new jump off point for new fractalized probability branches to grow from (because of Banach-Tarski's theorem), that means that every moment of every day is a chance to do something different.

My problem with my pattern is thus; I have a strained inkling that it ends very poor and alone. I can't seem to grow new branches out of this **** because I'm stuck in it. It's the same thing, over and over and over. It's like an emotional Groundhog's Day. I rage and rage against it, and it's like...quicksand. The more I fight it, the deeper I sink.

That is why I obsess over this Pattern, looking for a way out.

And the thing I said about auras was this: in those caves, it's like a sensory deprivation tank. If you want to experience extremely lucid visual auras and other weird hallucinations, go sit in a SD tank for a few hours. Migraine auras are something I understand, though, because my mom says she gets them. There might not be an evolutionary cause for auras, per se, but they could be the result of some hitherto unknown process in the brain. They just recently discovered a new type of cell in the brain called a rosehip cell.

And as for you, "Mr.Arch-Vile," I thought long and hard about how I was going to repsond to you, and I decided candor is best. I found your post rather offensive. If you'd actually read through my posts as you have claimed to have done, you would see that everything I have said on this site about this theory of mine is mathematically based in advanced physics. Moreover, I've said time and again that I use math as the key--if the equations don't balance out and I'm wrong, I'm wrong. I did this purposely for one reason--to rule out bias from within. I have been very explicit in stating that I don't want to debate metaphysics, I want to prove things with hard numbers. In mathematics we will find the answers to the universe.

For your second paragraph's critique, I will say this. What are your qualifications? I figured you'd have posted them since you seem so well versed in neurolinguistic programming. I don't care if they use this theory--I have proof it is mine. I don't care if they use what I talk about--so what? I have no therapists around me to go to, so unless you're offering a better solution (and I don't see you holding open your wallet for me so I can afford a psychologist), I don't see how you are fit to judge that. Some of us have no choice.

I'm not seeking a religious philosophy, so your proselytizing is wasted upon me. I do not discuss my religion with anyone, period. It's none of anyone's business what I believe; I don't understand why people feel the need to always go around wearing it like a badge to show everyone.

If God exists, He is most certainly a mathematician.