I feel like **** actually. I feel scared mostly, and I am not like a typical teenager, I feel physical pain whenever I stand.


The physical pain doesn't stop me from pacing around in my house for at least an hour. Nor do I feel any pain while I am doing my chemistry lab work.


I figured out, I could ignore my pain and it won't be as painful as if it could have been if I were concentrating on it.

I also figured out, I can ignore my anxiety and be a typical teenager. SUREEEEEEEE it won't give me 100% results, but eventually I'd increase my 'normalness.'

I figured out if I concentrate on studies, I will get accepted in med school.

> Accepted in med school
> Gets a bike.
> Gets cash so could hang out with friends AS WELL AS buy some suitable attire.
> Passes the semester
> Repeat.

Now. I know, a lot of problems can be in the way and I am sugarcoating it when I am saying I can stay in a hostel. Initial reaction of roomates would be a bit 'ehmmm?' BUT the doctors are there, okay? I just need to stay calm and focused.

- The Not So Lonely Doctor.