I broke. I talked first. I asked him to "say something, anything..." He has said nothing and switched his status from "online" to "do not disturb". Now not only did I fail to wait for him to come to me, but I have this message out there that he clearly saw and is choosing to ignore.

If he says nothing the entire day, which is frankly very generous of me to wait that long, I have made up my mind that he has to go. I have to set us both free. This is torture. I'd rather be alone if this is what our "friendship" has been reduced to.

Edit: I tried to take a shower hoping that would relax me, but it just made it really hard to breathe and I'm shaky and can't even hold my phone to type in this edit without dropping it on my face. I feel really weak and nauseous.