Is this the right thread for a bdsm question? I am almost 68 and recently after reading some soft dom/sub erotica, i became so aroused I decided to join an adult list and put myself out there. My age aside, i am on blood thinners. I un subbed off the list the first night when I realized I would never be able to service all these needy men. It was quite a shock to get naked photos. Nevertheless, I wanted to service some men and get an idea if reality was anything like my fantasies. The first men obliged me by belting my privates Black and blue. He was horrified and concerned. I assured him it didn’t hit. The last couple of whacks I did feel but no big deal. When I looked at my backside the next day and sent a picture, he cancelled. The third guy cancelled as well. There were may others but the one I promised to assist was a 68 year old dom. when he sent me photos of his Toybag, I was half terrified and half curious. By this time I had realized I had unprotected sex with the first guy. Maybe I can’t get pregnant but I could catch something. Since then I am concerned at my reckless behavior. I enjoyed my first and only encounter. I have never had an orgasm and didn’t then. We didn’t kiss. I teased him and begged for his belt and he obliged. Now i have ordered nipple clamps, **** plugs and a cat of 9 tails. I don’t know this mans name or where he lives, just that I am his slut and will take whatever he wants to give me. I’m pretty sure this isn’t healthy. Sigh. How do I reign myself in?