Yeah, usually around 6 hr. though I probably need more. Not that bad by bipolar standards. I think after lunch, I am going to take my anxiety meds with the low dose Seroquel & lie down, try to take a nap. I'm very depressed today, feel on the edge of a meltdown. Nobody, nobody, nobody in this whole area seems to want to help us or be able to. Red tape is everywhere. The government forms exhaust me, and I probably wouldn't qualify for aid with my husband's income any way. But when you've had $12,000 in medical bills you have to pay, $2800 air conditioning repair bills with I think an additional $500 bill later on because the blower was always on and didn't shut off, raising the electric bill to over $300, 2 car repair bills totaling around $1000 (we own our own cars but they are old - 1995 and 2007), vet bills to get the cats my daughter loves their annual vaccines, needing dental crowns, God a teacher's salary does nothing to hack into that considering you still have a mortgage, crappy health insurance, vision insurance (my daughter & I have awful eyesight), auto insurance, utilities, electric bill, groceries, gas, internet, cell phones (though we've dropped to a very basic low cost plan), medication, needing to buy lawn tools because you can no longer afford to pay people to mow the lawn, it adds up so fast.



These days I'm very frustrated and depressed. It's hard to be a good wife & mother feeling like this. I hate it. Apparently, I'm seeing the pdoc Sept. 5 although they wrote Sept. 11 on the reminder card, which I still have and does say Sept. 11. However, I got an autoremind email reminder from the clinic to go in Sept. 5 at 10 AM. Maybe it was something scheduled in advance? I doubt it, but I guess it could have happened. The rate I'm feeling though, I'll go in on the 5th and cancel the 11th if I need to.


Sorry for being so down all the time and no support to anyone here.