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So I am relapsing again with my Bulimia. When this has happened in the past I have told him. I can not tell this time. He has worked so hard with me. Gone the extra mile. Taken extra time with me. I am already so disappointed in myself I can not deal with seeing him disappointed in me. Of course he is trained well and will hide his disappointment but you can not train out of being human with human emotions so yes I believe any human would have feelings of disappointment. There also comes a point where you do all you can to get an expected result and when you fail you kind of back off and give up. This is where I believe therapist start to "just go through the motions" with clients that do not respond or progress.
Not saying he is going to do that but I am not even going to risk that chance.
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When a child’s emotional needs are not met and a child is repeatedly hurt and abused, this deeply and profoundly affects the child’s development. Wanting those unmet childhood needs in adulthood. Looking for safety, protection, being cherished and loved can often be normal unmet needs in childhood, and the survivor searches for these in other adults. This can be where survivors search for mother and father figures. Transference issues in counseling can occur and this is normal for childhood abuse survivors.
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