Louise,

It's just hard. You're not stupid, you're struggling with some difficult problems and dealing with them as well as you know how. Only you can say when you will stop, and maybe you're just not ready yet. You will be and I have a feeling that it will be soon (based on that you seem to be fed up with it, which is a good reason to change).

I probably shouldn't tell you this, but my house has holes in the walls in three different places where I put my head through them. That doesn't count places where the walls were strong enough to stand up to it - I learned where the studs are. I have to admit to feeling pretty stupid about that.

We don't do these things out of stupidity - we're trying to cope. Don't be afraid to talk to us. We can understand pretty much anything here. I sincerely hope that you feel better very soon.
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Love and kind wishes,
Wendy

<font color=blue>Life is filled with tragedy; if you let it overwhelm you, you cannot enjoy life's innocent pleasures. -Robert Heinlein</font color=blue>