So my therapist said today she was sorry that she mentioned to theory about my mom sexually abusing me. As much as a didnt want that to be true part of me did. I know that sounds sick. I just want to understand my thoughts and actions so bad. She said maybe I didn't need to know why but I do. No amount of evidence or theories are going to be enough evidence to know and even if it was I wouldn't forgive myself still. What do I do?