Maybe a possible trigger.




I really just wanted to pick a fight with you because I know the weekend is coming and it would be easier to go into if i was angry at you. I had this dream about you and my sister walking in a forest I see you walking ahead of me. She's little less than a year old and still a slightly pink and squishy baby dressed in white and with a little hat. You're looking at her- really looking at her like you're seeing her for the first time and her eyes are open and staring back at you. Then there's this was water log ride and she's with me. In at the front and my other sister is at the back and we have our own segregated seats but she falls out and so does my other sister. Then she's lying face down in a pool of water and I pull her out. I say she's allergic to the water as she's also coming out in a rash. Then she's in an incubator with wires all over her and I can hear the machine beeping. Then the scene moves to my the old room upstairs, I'm little again but just cleaning and trying on hair products, my mother pulls out this bag with my brothers old stuff. A magnet, a toothbrush a toy, a handwriting book and i say some of this stuff is 18 years old and I'm surprised that she kept it .