I swear God speaks to her. Her words come out sometimes as a shock to me like she's linked in to an all knowing. Today she told me i need to talk seriously with my daughter about how I lost custody. I may not have another day she said. My time is running out she said.

So during our dinner I told her everything. Reason for the divorce, why I lost custody. How I felt during that time. Told her she is wanted and loved. Talked about my son. Just really told her answers to questions she didn't even ask.

Now I've recently prayed to God asking for help. He's told me my one I was supposed to marry is married. So I feel lost. I don't know what to do with myself anymore. So I just asked God for help. He is helping me. But it takes time. I blew so many opportunities. Made so many mistakes. I'm hoping things turn out better for me. But right now I praying.