NOT feeling strong today. *What is going on* is getting to me and I'm pretty down on myself. I just don't think I've got what it takes to get through. My lack of IRL support, such as friends, really isn't helping.

All day at work it was all I could think about, and I really wanted to cry. But you know how when you are just too numb to actually do it?

I have a T appt. Friday. TG, because IRL, that's IT for support. And the only place I can talk about what happened, as I haven't felt brave enough to share here. (I feel so much shame even though I am the victim and "shouldn't" because I haven't done anything wrong.)

Ok, NOW I'm crying...