I saw my therapist two days ago. It was my fourth session. We've come to the conclusion that my biggest problem is my fear to relaps into depression again and that I have chronic anxiety issues. It is a very good therapist I have to say. My solution would be to build out a better social network, to find something meaningfull to do every day (work), and to learn to deal with my (negative) cognitions.

Building a social network is difficult for me because I find it very difficult to make friends, to meet new people, to tell things about myself to strangers. The anxiety, it's inhibiting. For now it's also difficult because I'm out of a job for the next few weeks. My cognitions are very bad now, constantly thinking worthless about myself. Comparing myself with everyone else and finding myself inferior. I really hate myself right now. I have beent taking medication to feel better, but there are limitations of what I can take.