Oh, you are actually doing fine. You are doing more than fine, you are doing great! this isn't a "relapse" - this is part of the recovery. You are learning a little bit more about your hardest triggers, the times when you need the most support and back up. You went THREE MONTHS without bulimia. That means you have got the skills. You own them. You got this. Okay so you don't have it 100% of the time yet, but you have got the skills and you know how to use them and you can use them and you do use them when you can. Sure, there are times and maybe even will be more times in the future when you are not quite able to use them consistently yet, but that's okay, that's all part of the process too. You just have to pick yourself up, dust yourself off, check in and see if you are okay, and say "that's okay, you just tripped up, that's all". Because that really is all it is. Just a little stumble. But the earth isn't flat and you didn't fall right of the edge! That gravity has got your back.