Hi, and welcome. It sounds like you are feeling pretty bad about yourself. Talking to your doctor about it is probably a good idea. You don't have to keep feeling that way, but nobody can help you unless you let them. I'm curious about when you say your T seems to have dumped you? It's usually up to you to make a new appointment. But a lot of what you say sounds very familar to me. I've been dumped by a T, but there were a few other times i just didn't make a new appointment.

Most of what you are saying is familiar to me. And it started for me during childhood too. It's hard to convince yourself that you deserve help, and that it will make a difference, but you do deserve to feel better, and you can.

Rapunzel