I'm so glad you connected with your therapist, and feel that real connection. It takes a good measure of time for therapy to work, so the short term now sounds tough, but the longer term seems hopeful. I hope the next few weeks pass safely and quickly, so that your T haas time to get to work with you on the goals.

Did you listen to the Ted Talk by Andrew Solomon about his depression? I also like Shep Nuland's ( Dr. Sherwin Nuland ) Ted Talk on having electroshock therapy in the middle of his career as a great surgeon, and coming back to win the Puitzer Prize for the book How We Die after having almost zero hope of recovery.

For some reason, when I feel horrible, it consoles me to listen to people who have hit bottom and become okay again.

Do you like dogs at all? I think having a friendly dog almost makes human friends inevitable. You can go to training class and hikes, and there's already a bond and a conversation.