Hello atseamedic: Since this is your first posted thread here on PC, I'd like to also welcome you to PsychCentral!

I hope you find PC to be of benefit.
Here's a link to an article by our host Dr. John Grohol, Psy.D., from PsychCentral's archives, on the subject of healing from grief & loss. The article provides links to numerous other archived articles on the subject:
Coping with Grief and Loss - Psych Central
And then here are links to 7 articles, also from PC's archives, that are not included in the article I linked you to above. The last article is a quiz you can take to help you determine if you are affected by complicated grief:
What Grief and Loss Looks Like 33 Years Later: Remembering My Mum
Responding to Grief and Coping with Loss: You Can Survive Your Greatest Fears
Healthy Ways to Navigate Your Grief
5 Creative Ideas for Keeping Your Loved One's Memory Alive
https://psychcentral.com/news/2006/1...dium=popular17
https://blogs.psychcentral.com/bondi...dium=popular17
https://psychcentral.com/quizzes/grief-quiz/
My best wishes to you...