Thanks everybody. It's nice to have a place (PC) to share sadness over losing T. If I would have had it my way, I would have seen her every week for the rest of my life. Of course, she is much older than I am so I don't know how that would have worked practically but still. I'm very sad. I keep having these crying spells, but crying is better than SH. Well I mean, it's a better way to cope. I don't mean it works the same way or anything.