Yup. Never had even considered it before (and I've been on meds for around 30 years), but this summer in early July I decided that I was going to stop taking meds. I had had enough with being on meds - everything about being on meds. I was feeling pretty good, so I told my pdoc and my therapist that I wanted to "go down" on my dosages (my real plan was to soon stop meds).

They both asked me to promise not to go off meds (apparently they suspected I wanted to); pdoc lowered some dosages and told me I could go ahead and work toward going off a med (Seroquel).

Then we went, very suddenly, from an extremely hot summer to a mild, almost fall-like weather. I love the cooler weather and the golden light. And within a day of the weather/light change depression, anxiety, and obsessing started. Oh - and anger. Anger at everything. I drop something and I'm furious. Someone blows their horn outside my window and I would have kill the person if only I could get my hands on them.

So, ha. Joke on me. I stopped the idea of going off the med I use for sleep (Seroquel) - at least for now - and I've increased my Lamictal. I have an appointment with my pdoc on Tuesday; if I could see her right now, I would. I feel like I'm getting dangerously close to barely hanging on. I wish I could add a massive dose of Haldol to my meds. I'm that desperate.