I have let my dx affect myself in so many ways that I will never be that carefree lad again ... it has made me paranoid about every little thing in my life ... the little ups and downs of daily life become suspect ... I limit my chances to screw up ... limit social life ... try to be completely stress free as possible ( except work of course ) ... I doubt myself and seek out others to tell me how I am doing ... my self confidence is completely gone ... accepted or ruined ... neither ... just dramaticlly changed ... a shell of my former self ... kinda sad really ... I used to be so much fun ... in my younger days I described myself as a ping pong ball in a hurricane .... today ... a stick in the mud .... Tigger .