Perhaps. I've lost 2 really good long time friends this year and 2 more friends. Except in tiny doses, I feel nothing about it. I have the odd moment where I feel sad and then it's gone as fast as it came. If anything I feel mostly guilt for not feeling sad about these loses. I feel like I should be sad, but it's just not coming.

I appreciate the irony of being on a depression board and complaining of an inability to be sad. I'm worried these feelings are stuffed down and going to burst out one day. I'm also worried that I'm becoming heartless.

Thank you for listening.