I used to be a chronic med ditcher. I was either chasing the high of mania or I felt fine and figured I didn’t need them. I too learned my lesson after a particularly scary psychotic episode that manifested all on its own. Previously my last psychotic episode was due to being on an AD without an AP, or so I assumed. Ever since then (four years ago) I have been completely med compliant; however it has taken me a long time to find a good combo without unbearable side effects. I stayed on invega for three years despite a raised prolactin level, gaining 75lbs, and having my blood sugar shoot up. I finally had to go off of it because of prediabetes and it has taken me a year to find another combo that works as well. I hope I have found that with my current combo. I’ve been stable since May but I also haven’t worked since May. I am worried work will destabilize me. However I will not now, not ever go off my meds again.