Echoes, you know I so know where you are with this right now. I am in a very similar situation and recently I tried to find some more healing for myself by asking this person why they acted like they did, and the response I got was just as painful as the original seperation. Once broken there is only one way to go and thats forward. I am sorry you are hurting so much right now and proberbly like myself are only thinking if only, if only, but its to late for that now, you are entering a new phase of your life and the pain is almost like a rebirth. You will get through this!! you will be so much wiser and stronger too! Take care!