Hi everybody, I'm new to this forum and this is my first post so please bear with me.
I am just looking for a way to get some things off my chest, share my story and hopefully get some advice.

My story:

I was always a worrier, but last summer i started to get random palpitations which scared me in the moment, but I didn't think too much about them.
So, one night, because me and my friends have a tendency to drink too much when we're partying, I came home really drunk and fell asleep, but after like half an hour i woke up gasping for air, like my throat is closing, very strong adrenaline surge and fear... somehow i calm down, try to sleep again but every time i begin to fall asleep it's as if i forget to breath in and again i wake up with adrenaline. that was 15. 12. 2017. , official date when anxiety entered my life. I began to feel mildly agoraphobic, started to withdraw, but then again i forced my self to go out and meet people or just walk, exercise. I cut caffeine and alcohol for three months back then to se if it will help, and yes, helped a little, but not too much. Just as i started to think im better, anxiety came back even stronger, and it loosened up just recently, but i have been feeling depressed lately, feeling the urge to cry, waking up drenched with sweat and thinking negative thoughts, thinking of suicide (just thinking, i'd never do it).
One of the biggest problems is also persistent insomnia that follows me constantly already a year.
I just want some reassurance, tips, how did you overcome this, please help, i'd like to feel positive but hopelesness and fear overwhelms me.
btw no money for therapy, and also moving abroad in two weeks so language is problem.
every response is greatly appreciated
thank you all