Out of all of the negative emotions I feel, jealousy is probably the worst and most damaging. Even some of my other emotions are based on jealousy of some sort, maybe all of them are.

For as long as I can remember I've always been jealous of others. Really jealous, sometimes even enough to hate them and be horrible to them. The furthest back I remember was at first school; the other kids had toys I thought were cool and wanted but I wasn't allowed for whatever reason, so I hated them. I am still like that now, there are so many things I want but can't have. And I see other people with them and I get VERY jealous and hate them. This is not only physical objects now, it has extended to other non-physical things.

Things I am jealous of:
Objects I can't afford (and people who own them)
Objects I can't have for some other reason (and people who own them)
People who live in decent places and can have peace and quiet and sleep whenever they want/need. What makes me more angry is when people have this but don't "use" it, they choose to stay up making as much noise as possible and sleep through the day, then whinge about how terrible they feel all of the time (I am stuck under noise and will never have a healthy sleeping pattern ever again)
Other women who are "attractive" and can get boyfrieds and husbands and have a normal life (I am very ugly and will be single forever)
People who have jobs, money and can do pretty much whatever they want (i'll be unemployed and poor forever because I am useless)

There's probably more things I've forgotton but those are the main ones. I know jealousy is an UGLY emotion and it makes me ill, and causes so many other problems, but I can't help it, it's how I've always been.