Have you noticed I can't even say the word shame? It's too shameful. I've written you a huge email but I won't send it. I cant let you know how much I need you. Dangerous. You know too much, you've seen too much of me and I can't stand it anymore. I feel totally nuts this afternoon, totally unable to settle myself and I have a teething toddler to look after. I just want to curl up on your sofa and go to sleep....please? I just want someone to look after me.