If/when you reach full integration and are no longer DID then you might understand that equating living life 100% different,having to learn completely different coping skills,etc to having to grow up is an understatement and nothing similar at all.You have lived your entire life the way you are,as I did too,can you even imagine if it was different and you were no longer DID at all?

I'm curious what you mean by it feels like you had to grow up over and over again.Do you mean going through hard times in your life and having to start over?I'm assuming that's what you mean.I have had to do that in the past before too but I was still DID at the time,now no longer being that way it's a whole new ballgame.

I hope I will be fine as you say.