Ok...rejection is coming from many levels..

At this particular point I looked at the weather forecast...and wednesday its calling for snow.....my T has simply said she'll only cancel due to sickness or family emergencies...so why....whhhhhyy do/am I worrying she'll cancel wednesday?

I'm also set on her leaving me...see I've been trying my best to get outta the house...well yesterday I didnt...but today I will...so I e-mailed her told her I was disapointed in myself and that I was planning to get out tomorrow ( today)...in the e-mail I also told her I was worried about wednesdays snow....

Basicly I'm worried to tell her of my worries of her rejecting me because I"m afraid that'll make her WANT to reject me...

See I'm not giving my T credit...and I Feel bad about it..I"ve seen her since alst July...and she's never canceled on me...nor has she ever said she's disapointed in me....

Yet I know until wednesday at 4:00 when I come in from school and I ask my mom "T didnt cancel did she" and my mom reply "No..go get rdy we gotta leave to go to your appointment"...I will worrie my head off......

This has only been going on for a month or less....why did it start....does everyone have a time like this in therapy?

Maybe its because this T is the only T that has helped me and the past 3 either A. Sucked. or B. DID reject me....

THanks for listening.