I was down for part of the day, no doubt due to worrying about my job situation. And I had to get up super early to take my car to the tire shop because I had a leak in one of my tires. Good news is it was just a nail and they patched it up in a half hour for twenty bucks. I came home and rested some, then went and took my son school supply shopping. We got the majority of the stuff he needed at target which is good because I have a store credit card there and get five percent off my purchase when I use it. Tomorrow I’m going to take him to staples for the rest of the stuff and to famous footwear to get shoes. He doesn’t need any new clothes yet. He’s still a skinny Minnie. He got taller though so I’m sure when I have to pull his pants out for fall we’re gonna have to buy new pants.

I’ve got a plan in place should I lose this job opportunity so I feel a little bit better. That’s how I deal with my anxiety, preparing for the worst case scenario. It will still suck though if they say they won’t accommodate me. But such is life. My grandma said she’d hire me as her home health aide for the interim because she just had back surgery and needs a lot of help. Her slimy cousin is helping her now but none of us trust him. We think he’s just trying to get himself written into her will (my grandparents are legit millionaires). He even joked about her being a “junkie” today because she’s on OxyContin for pain. Not cool, especially considering my husband died of an overdose and he knows that. He’s just a slimeball.

So yes, I’m surviving the anxiety. I’m hoping it goes my way but I have a backup plan if it doesn’t.