I have to go and see my shrink this coming Tuesday and I am a nervous wreck the last time I went and saw him he was rude treated me like I was nothing. I guess he doesnt like it to much that I know a lot about the meds I am taking the side effects and stuff like that.I do look up the meds I take. Like I was on Depakote for years before I had to finally force him to take me off of it. Actually the last time I went there I told him right off I am not going to take the Depakote anymore it was making me sick. He wouldnt listen to me before so I had to say something, Why wont the doctors listen to us when we try to tell them something?? I really don't think they understand anxieties all to well and far as depression goes all they think it is is crying it is much more then that. I am so afraid to go out .I am an agoraphobic but I need my meds. I could use a few prayers to get me through this . This is about the 5th doctor I have already seen at this place already,they quit after 6-12 months.I dont know I feel more comfortable with a woman doctor then a man anyway. I feel so all alone.