well i am 3 days away from having to see my t... and i haven't done much of what he wanted me to do (and some things he didn't) for the past 2 weeks... i have used my treadmill... but i didn't write him the letters he wanted... and i didn't work in my workbook...so we can move on to the next... so i guess i have my day planned.

he isn't going to be real happy with some of the things i did choose to do...cutting, counting calories and weighing myself ... but don't know any other way to get the food back under control...if i am going to i have to start there... i have gained 20 lbs since last july... it was really more then that because i started limiting calories about a week ago...

i have to get blood drawn this week... and i am still thinking... then i can cut on my arm (smart huh?)... but, at the same time i have to see my med doc next week so we can go over the results... and i am going to have to tell him that i didn't start that medication and how badly it upset me... and that i(and my t) couldn't get ahold of him.

soooo that's what the other things are i guess kiya...sorry i didn't post this sooner...i have kind of been living life at a distance again... lyn