today is a very special day for us

it's special because we're going to tick something off our bucket list (or we hopefully are)

we're going to the funfair!

okay, so it's not exactly good news.. I am very anxious about going (with the crowds, and the rides, and the music), etc etc, and I feel a panic attack isn't far off.

but we chose to do this as a system. at least try it. if it doesn't work it doesn't work