It's pretty normal for people to discover that they're LGBT later in life, so no worries there. I've heard of people coming out in their 70s or later. Most of us don't get the chance to explore our feelings about gender or sexuality until we get a little older, I think.


It's also very normal for people who are first coming into their feelings to feel conflicted like you do, or feel like they could imagine sex with someone, but not romance, or vise versa. As you get more comfortable with your attraction to women, that might change.


What you say about women being prettier and more attractive than men is an almost sure-fire sign that you are attracted to them, by the way. Every woman-loving-woman I've ever met has felt that way, and many have talked about feeling that way before they were aware they were attracted to women.


I can't say how psychosis plays into it, but it sounds like some part of your mind really believes you are a lesbian already. You could be bi, too, but if the label 'lesbian' feels right to you, there may be a reason.