Today I filled up 3 bin bags of rubbish in my flat . There is still more rubbish and lots of mess and lots of tiny flies ( mostly in the kitchen ) . My kitchen is half filled up with rubbish bags , there is about 10 large bags full . It's hard for me to think how I will clean and tidy the kitchen with all this rubbish bags in the way . So I guess my next step is to take some of the rubbish out . I hate being in the kitchen because there is about 1000 tiny flies . Somebody suggested they might be fruit flies . I hope I find the motivation to do some more cleaning today . I really need to . Should I just be happy that I was able to put some rubbish in bags or should I be angry that I didn't do more ? I really want to do more . It's hard because the flies puts me off and I have no motivation .
The reason I started to clean a little is because my mum told me that my daughter wants to come and visit me soon. Well I can't let her visit while it's like this .
I hope I can do more today . I really hope I can . But I am overwhelmed by how much really still needs to be done . Sigh