I keep feeling these permanent tears in my eyes.

no matter if im laughing, distracting myself, talking with others, working, hanging out or relaxing... they are always there. and i can feel their warmth running down my face but they never do.

i try to get distracted, try to do good for others, try to enjoy life for what im allowed to…. nothing works.

im tired, very tired. sometimes i feel im going crazy because im so exhausted of feeling those tears right there. physically feeling them there, on my face. and mentally always there anyway. they are bloody sometimes too…..

im so tired i want to quit. nothing works anway...